Basically, life's throwing him a curve ball and he doesn't even know what baseball is yet. I'm so full of emotion, that sometimes I think my body is confused on how it should feel. Jokes aren't as funny anymore and sports don't matter as much, I just think about my baby nephew Hudson all day. He's with my sister and family in Kansas City so I haven't even met him yet, but I have a strong urge to just run there by foot if I had to and hold him. I want to tell him everything will be alright. Is it okay if I trust God but still weep at the thought of something happening Hudson? I'm scared the answer is "no", then at least I know I need some help.
I'm taking Friday off from work and setting all my personal things aside, nothing is more important to me than family, so I'm going to KC this weekend to serve and love them.
I want this blog be a source of inspiration to myself and others when we read it, so at the end of every entry I will connect with God through prayer.
Dear Father,
I pray that you would use me on this trip to KC, however I can help. I ask that you open my eyes to situations that needs someone to step-up and instill some courage in me to follow your lead. God I already feel how emotionally tough this will be for me, the thought of something bad happening to my 3 day old nephew moves me to tears. I ask that you help give me strength and that you remind me to lift my fears up to you. I ask these same things for Kristi, Joe, Grandma Mary, Dad, Amy, Bennett, Weston, Lindsey, Lauren and all the family involved. God make us humble and always ask for help when we need it. We love you so much, I totally trust you and your plan. I'm grateful that you are in control and I'm not, my life would be very messed up if it were the other way around. Father, I ask that you be with me tomorrow and the rest of this week leading up to Kansas City. Going to work is going to be tough for me, when all I can think about is wanting to be with family. Thank you for your love, your Son, and your spirit. Thank you for your compassion.
In Jesus Name I pray,
Amen
On the outside of my hard copy journal I have on my desk it has this bible verse:
Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strenth. They will soar on wings like eagles.
Isaiah 40:31
What a great verse from God today. I prayed for strength, and he showed me this verse 30 seconds later. He is faithful, we should be too.
Brother, I am moved by this post. It is difficult to understand and even fathom why we are allowed to experience heartache. I heard of a couple terrible stories today (makes me too sick to recount) and my heart is saddened even more. Why do we feel heartache? I guess, though, that is why Paul preached to live "is Christ, but to die is gain!" He lived with the knowledge that there is something better, an eternity of joy without heartache... Thank the Lord that the eternity will be in that type of world vs. the one we live in!
ReplyDeleteOn another note, the Lord is so good. I received your text about your nephew going home after being in the hospital for a few days --> praise Jesus! He hears us when we cry out to Him. Thank you for using this blog to reach others!
Thanks for the comment man. You're right God's power and faithfulness always keeps amazing me. Deep heartache is hard for me to go through once or twice a year, I pray for those experiencing it every day. It's scary people go through life without a relationship with Christ.
ReplyDeleteIt's inspiring to see you share your faith!
ReplyDeleteI journal alot to bro, I have for about ten years, and it is great to go back and remember what the Lord has done in my life and the answered prayers, and to see how I've grown or overcome. I look forward to spend more time with you worshiping The Father.
Safe travels.
In His Service,
Zachary